Okay. So much has happened since the last time I have blogged. There is good news, bad news... and news news. Yes readers and bloggers, I said news news. But a lot of people are hurting, thanks to me, and to some people who will not be living much longer.... *shifty*
Numero Uno- Well, I may have to go to jail. O.o Only because this kid, Sk8er Boy, may die by my hands. He was a complete jerk to Angel, so now, he dies. He humiliated her, and NO ONE, i say, NO ONE, will ever hurt my Angel without some major pain!!!!! *snarles and froaths at mouth*
Numero Does- Well, my best friend, Angel... She's not doing well with the whole Sk8er Boy calling her stalker and phycotic bitch, and I love her. I hate to see her like this... It's horrible...
Numero Tres- I have many things on my mind. And I don't know why but lately, everything around me, no matter what it is, has been pissing me off. Even my friends, and for no reason! I hold back my anger at them, but I don't even know WHY I get frustrated or annoyed with them. They aren't doing anything wrong... It's just... I've had this anger in me that won't go away... And I don't know what it is.
Numero Quatro- I got over him. It took so long... But I did it. He's not chaining me down anymore. I'll always care for Brian, but I won't let him take hold of my life anymore. I have a new boyfriend now. Jason, and he's great. But... he's a big part of why I'm okay now. As soon as I said yes to him, I let go of Brian. Jason kind of... set me free. Even if our relationshp doesn't work out (wich it has been going great so far even though I'm kind of a horrible g/f), I'll always be greatful of him.
Numero- Well, I'm doing better. A lot better than I used to. You know, I was into that horrible stuff, but... I've been getting stronger in my Christain life. I have been talking to more people, and it helps. I've been getting better and stronger, and I stopped cutting. So, that's good news. But there is a bad side to this. It's been hard still. I have had the urge to do it again... and it's kind of scary. I used to be numb, you know, not feel anything? But now... everything hurts... it hurts... and it won't stop hurting. I mean, yeah. it's great that I can feel happy, and exited, and nervouse, and anxiouse, and joyfull again... but i can feel everything else too. It feels like I'm in way over my head... and I'm fighting and fighting... but it jsut gets so hard! I just want to give up and fall down again! But I'm afraid to... And no one even knows what's happening to me! It's... horrible.
So yeah. That's pretty much it. I'm out and will be back tomarrow!
~MaX, Savvy?
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4 comments:
heyy. I'm TOTALLY over sk8er asshole! so you don't have to kill him anymore. i think all the rumors are all gone now anyways. so i'll be okay. as for you...you need some help. like, someone to talk to. and why would you want to do it again? I'm not mad at you for wanting to, I mean I want to sometimes too. but you'll get over it. I promise! we'll move on together. okay? Twinnii's forever,
Angel
P.S. Don't worry about me. My probelms are looooong gone!
max, im sorry, but i do know wat is happening to you. when i was young, a best friend of mine died right in front of me, and from sixth to seventh grade, i was a constant cutter, because someone kept on teasing me about it. but u looked just like her, and when i saw u, it was like i never lost her, but then i fell in love with you, and it felt all wrong, so i decided to stay friends, because i didnt want to drive you away. because i think that a life without you, wudntg b a life worth living.
whoa...joey. that was like, idk but wow. i'm so sorry. but u told me that already. i still can't believe it...*tear*
well, it's true.
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