5 days, and life already sucks again.

Ok, well, it's been about five days sinc my last post right? Well, aparetnly, a lot can happen in five days....

Uno: Okay, first of all, an apoligy to Ella, Maddy, Amanda, Spencer, and Kyle. I was really moody that day, and I WAAAAAYYYYY over reacted. I'm sorry, I knwo you guys aren't ignoring me anymore, so thanks and SOOOOOO sorry.

Does: Okay, second of all. Tom is completely desprate. He's broken up with 4 girls in five days time, and he asked me out AGAIN. I turned him down right away though. I hate this kid now. He's a fricking PERVE!!!!!!

Tres: Well, Nudge, Dezzie, Brit and I had an AWSOMELY INSANE sleepover! We had sooooo much fun! We got hyper off of candy corn and m&m's, and we sort of got high off of perfume...... ANYWAYS, well, during this sleepover Nudge got some pretty crappy news...

Quatro: Well, Nudge's BEST FRIEND (who she's kind of in love with) called her. Ever since she moved here, he's been having troube back in Mass. I'm not going to say it, because I resptect her privacy, but all I can say, is that is was REALLY bad, and Nudge is bummed and worried like hell.

Scinco: Well, on this SAME night, I got a call from Raf. Well, Raf has had pretty tough life. The only friend he had back in Cali was me. Most people at school taunted him and stuff. He and I have knwon each other since we were 1, and it was really hard leaving him, and it was hard for him when i left too, because like I said, I was his only friend.
Well, Three years ago, his mom was killed in a car accident, and he was pretty depressed for a long time. Well, just three weeks ago, him telling me two night ago, his dad died. So now, Raf is an orphen. I got an e-mail from him that got me really scared:


Hey. I wish you were here right now. I'm having some trouble at school with Jake, but it's ok. I can hadle it. He's just saying he can't wait for you to come and save me or whatever, but it doesn't matter. Anyways, the adoption center isn't all that bad. I get internet and phone, and a lady is already looking to take me in. She seems nice. She only lives five minutes from my old house, and i still get to go to JAMS, so, more Jake. But whatever. You know, with now parents around, no friends at school, and you across the country, I'm doing so good. I told Ian to take over for me, but it isn't offical, we're not sure if I'm going to stay leader.. You know, I'm realy starting rethink this whole living thing.

I'm so afraid of loosing him though... What if really does try to kill himself? You know, probably a song that I can really relate to right now is Dissapear, by The Summer Obsession.

Here are the lyrics to it:

I'm trapped in a world that I can't take
Where everything's unrealistic and fake
I'm hiding out and planning my escape
I hope I'm not the only one
Please come and rescue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose, there's more to life out there?

There's no happiness surrounding me
Hate and ugliness is all I see
I wanna leave it all behind
I'm running out time
Please come, and ruscue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose, there's more to life out there?

And I don't wanna be blind...
I wanna open my mind
I wanna know if there's a perpous to this life
Will I ever find it? I'm running out of time...

Trapped in a world that I can't take
I'm hiding out and planning my ecape
Please come, and Rescue me tonight...

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose, there's more to life out there?

I just wish that I could dissapear.

~~Max, Savvy?

Teenage life sucks.

Well, Of coarse, as you know, I'm back in school and it SUCKS! Well, first off, today, my ex-boyfriend asked me out AGAIN, and I REALLY don't want to date him again, but I'm afraid of hurting him. He's really in a fragile state. he goes into depression really easily, as in, the tries-to-kill-hiself-depression. I'm afriad if I reject him, he'll go into depression again. He keeps on saying he still loves me, and whatever problems there are, he would fix them, but like I said, the relationship he wants isn't the kind I'm ready for. He said he'll let me think about it and he'd give me all the time I needed. Please, PLEASE, leave comments! I need help PRONTO!
Well, in other news, my FORMER friends that live in my nieghborhood ore bitches. I'm so fricking pissed at them! I was gone for 3 weeks, and they become BEST friends, and now, they ignore me! I can't believe them! I talk to them on the bus like nothing is wrong, but when they get together to hang out, or they go to football games together, they don't even THINK to fricking call me! It really hurts. I mean, really ALL of them do this, Ella, Maddy, Amanda, Spencer, Kyle, all of them. They really do hurt me. I'm the only kid in the nieghborhood that sits in my house all day, listening to those assholes and bitches having fun and being all friends-ish with no room for one more! And Ella, if you EVER read this blog again, yes, I am REALLY mad at you guys. I don't care if you're sick Ella, because I KNOW you wouldn't if I was. I can't believe you. In fact, I don't care if you have fricking FOOD POISENING! You all deserve it! I have been loyel to you guys, I would never try to hurt you like this, EVER! And Ella, I hope you read this, because I'm REALLY FRICKING PISSED AT YOU! All of you. You really hurt me. I don't even fricking get what reason you have! I've never done anything to you, I've never ignored you, I've never tried to hurt you, I was gone for three weeks, THREE WEEKS, and you all forget I even exist! I FIRCKING HATE YOU GUYS RIGHT NOW!

~~MaX, Savvy?
P.S. By the way, Ella, if you're never going to blog, this blog is mine.

Back to the beginning

Ok, so, by the looks of it, Ella is gone. (I think she might be dead again 0.o) And, I have this WHOLE blog to myself! Ok, well, i have a lot to catch up on here. Well, I had TONS of fun over the summer! (summer camp, baltimore/washington, parties, Cali... the list goes on and on) Well, now, I'm back in school with whole new junk load of drama! WHOOPIE! Well, lets go with a new intro here.
Well, again, I'm Max for all you new folks here! I live SOMEWHERE(like I would really say) in Maine, and I go to BEMS, the most drama filled middle school in the U.S.! I am in 8th grade, with a little dram here, back stabbing friends there, break ups over there, rumors over here, basicly, your avrage middle school stuff! Fun, fun, fun! Well, Angel, one of my best budds, is not in my Clan, but she is in basicly the same exact halls, so I'm ok there, and Nudge, well, Nudge isn't apart of the problem anymore, so, she's out of the picture. So is Sarah. She aparently hated me too and I didn't know it. Well, I've got Dezzie in my Clan (yay! =^.^=), and two new best budds! Liz and Liz! Well, one is Nudge, she's the one I met first. The other one is.... well Liz! Well, I LOVE my new friends, but being back seems like a whole new school year. New friends, new classes, new teachers, new halls, crazy schedule, and all new DRAMA. Well, as you could probably tell in some of my first posts, I hate being new. I mean, it feels like I'm a black animal in a sea of white ones! Well, okay, the first day of the new school year, it went well, and first day, means new boyfriend. Yes, you heard me right, first day I got a BF. He was cool and all, and for the first day or so, I really liked the kid, but the kind of relationship he was looking for (sexual i mean), I wasn't ready for, so, I JUST broke up with him today, crazy huh? Well, ten minutes after I brake up with him, he has another girl friend, How crazy is that (dumb player). Well, anyways, back to my friends. Well, Nudge, Liz, Dezzie, and me, all sing together and made a singing group called Fourever! I like the name a lot. We have a lot of fun. Once every Thurseday we give a performance in the class, it's pretty awsome! Well, we're doing really well, so far, no drama between us, but it's only the beginning of the year, right? Well, hopefully, i don't get the crap I got last year, but I've got great friends! I'll be blogging again soon!

MaX, Savvy?
P.S. *SQUEE!*